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"Nothing is more miserable and lonely than not having something you want to do" Penggalan lirik lagu "So Far Away" Agust D ft. Suran ku rasa sangat relate . Aku suka mikir disaat lagi ngerasain kesepian dan gatau mau ngapain terus disamping itu diri ini merasa kalo orang-orang keep telling you to do something. It's pathetic.  Setelah dihadapkan situasi itu, aku jadi mikir gini "Everyone else is running, why am I the only one here" Bandingin posisi ku sama orang lain. Makin dapet yang namanya peer pressure . Mulai mempertanyakan udah umur segini aku ga seperti dia yang udah sampai ke titik yang aku rasa jauh dari pencapaian ku. Aku jadi seakan ga sadar,starting point individu mengambil jalan atau meraih mimpi itu beda-beda.  Kita masuk lagi ke penggalan lirik yang menceritakan lagi situasi setelah nya. "I want everything to disappear. I want it to disappear like a mirage. Want it to disappear. I want my damn self to disappear. Like this, the world...

       Hello, fellas. It's my third day. Can't believe I have made it so far. I wish this challenge would become a good memory for me. Maybe, I'll find something new someday. Today, I'm gonna talk about memory. Maybe this topic made me clueless because I find it hard to tell it in a paper, but let me give it a try.      When I write about something, I always think about what song suits this topic. So, I decided to choose  JAMAIS VU BY BTS  . It's their song from their album Maps Of the Soul:7. It's perfoming by Jin, J-Hope, and Jungkook of BTS. I'll share the part of the lyrics. I think it relates to this topic.  [Post-Chorus: Jungkook] A remedy, a melody A memory that will be left just for me If I stop right now If I just turn it off, will all be more comfortable? [Verse 4: Jin] I'm fine but I'm not fine I told myself I was used to it It always hurts like it's the first time     "A memory that will be left just for me" that ly...

       Hello, I'm back. Today, I'm gonna talk about something that makes me happy. This little thing that always together with me during the stage of my life. Let's talk it one by one. But, first I'll tell you about something that makes me happy. it's a fangirling moment.      Fangirling is an activity that always there every day in my life. I always have someone that I adore and I feel that fangirling can boost my mood up. I feel so happy when my idol posted selca, tweets, or updated something. I think I have a plan for tomorrow just to see them on social media. and I see myself can't live without this thing. sometimes, I feel it strange for not having an idol and cheer them. fangirling is coloring my day. So, in this story, I'll start to begin my fangirling journey because I'm so happy to share it and I have no time yet to share this story with my friends.     In my childhood days around 4 or 5, I started to fangirling boy group from Taiwan...

Before I start talking about myself, I've been questioning all the time about this topic. What kind of personality I have, huh? But, once I found the interesting thing about this topic that may lead me to explain my personality easily. Personality. I noticed "persona" in personality. Persona sounds beautiful, right? From the article from sains.kompas.com , I read the synopsis of the book with the title "Map of The Soul: Persona". Jung, the writer of this book said that humans have four layers just like an onion. Persona is the cortex. Persona is a public face, it's the part that you want to show to people, so they know you. So, I want to tell you about that. But, at the end of the day, you don't know me at all. I show what I want to show. I rarely show my emotions, especially my anger. It seems so hard for me to show that I was angry with people who might have made some mistakes to me. I just took "silent treatment" to them which is not alway...