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Describe Your PERSONAlity #30DaysWritingChallenge (Day 1)

Before I start talking about myself, I've been questioning all the time about this topic. What kind of personality I have, huh? But, once I found the interesting thing about this topic that may lead me to explain my personality easily.


Personality. I noticed "persona" in personality.


Persona sounds beautiful, right?


From the article from sains.kompas.com, I read the synopsis of the book with the title "Map of The Soul: Persona". Jung, the writer of this book said that humans have four layers just like an onion. Persona is the cortex. Persona is a public face, it's the part that you want to show to people, so they know you.


So, I want to tell you about that. But, at the end of the day, you don't know me at all. I show what I want to show.

  • I rarely show my emotions, especially my anger. It seems so hard for me to show that I was angry with people who might have made some mistakes to me. I just took "silent treatment" to them which is not always good, right? Because I was too tired to explain to them about my anger. So, I decided to walk away. And it made people assume various ways towards me

  • Hard to say no. I swear it kills me sometimes. I'm still learning to make boundaries, so I can think more about saying "no" to something. I don't want to please everyone easily, I think I should care about myself first. Dear me, it's okay to say no.

  • Patience. I have trained this for long time. I'm the first child. So, this condition taught me a lot about how to stay calm with your siblings, parents, and friends. I always think about others' conditions first. If someone treats me badly, I just think of the positive possibilities... Just like maybe he/she didn't mean to do that or think about other variables that suit the possibilities.

  • Forever learner. I can't stop learning about everything. I always find myself getting interested in something and want to do it with all my effort. I want to show my best. I take it seriously when it comes to something that I like. But, the sad fact is that I sometimes push myself too hard and I don't realize it. So, I'm still learning to allow myself to take it to step by step. Don't rush.

  • Not a spokesperson. I found it hard to speak about my thoughts directly. Especially in front of a forum, even in small groups. I have so many things in my head, but end up saying nothing. Silent. I just went with the flow. Since I have joined organizations in my college for 3 years,  I would like to thank you for my organization’s activity which taught me to be better in speaking. It helped me a lot.

  • I’m a quiet person in so many ways. If I feel uncomfortable, I will quiet. But, I could be a talkative person, if I was close to someone. I could talk about everything. I feel sorry if someone has to reach me out first, so I want to talk about things. I'm such a difficult person.

  • Free spirits. I love freedom. Freedom as a human as well as a woman. Freedom to do something as long as it doesn't hurt anybody. I feel bad if I do something across others' values or culture and people say that it's not good for women, bla bla bla. I just want to say, maybe we have different values, but they always say that as humans we need to remind others. But, it feels like you don't respect me.


I think that's all about my personality. Here are some parts of my favorite lyrics from Persona by RM of BTS. Maybe it suits this topic so well.



Dear myself, 

You must never lose your temperature

Cause you don't need to be neither warm nor cold

Though I might sometimes be hypocritical or pretend to be evil

This is the barometer of my direction I want to keep


Persona

Who the hell am I?

I just wanna go

I just wanna fly

I just wanna give you all the voices till I die

I just wanna give you all the shoulders when you cry
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